So…I’ve had some discussions with Alex about Wed/Fri while at Cedar, right? And the last major conversation we had was about our style of evangelism. Are we equipping to send out, or creating a magnet to draw ppl in? I brought up the first, Alex argued for the second. And in our VTeam mtg…he posed the question asking which are we? And Lisa told him his questions were so good an insightful, and Alex said that he was just thinking to day and they came to him.
And I was like…ummm…are you kidding me?! Like, I guess the pride in me wants recognition. that’s what I’ve struggled with for a long time, and that’s what I really do think is now my burden to bear.
And I know–God doesn’t promise that life will be fair. God doesn’t promise that I’ll get credit for what I do–for what he does through me.
But…shouldn’t Alex not take the credit for what I’ve helped him realize as well?? Like, that question was the foundation of our discussion (which, Praise God, was nothing short of a God thing)
And I know, as I write this, that the Devil is pleased because he’s looking to cause division among us now that things have settled between Alex and Rachel.
And it’s not the first timem Alex has done this either…which shows that I keep a record of wrongs. and that’s not love. Lord God, if this is my burden to bear, give me the strength and humility to do it, Father.
I just did the devo for today. It talks about division, and disorder, talking smack about your brother, because you hold bitter envy and selfish ambition in your hearts. And that is “earthly, unspiritual, and of the Devil”.
And it tells us that “God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble”. I like to think of myself as humble, but I guess knowing this about myself proves I’m not.
Lord Jesus, Holy Spirit, change my heart and make it yours. Don’t let the Devil get me and tear us apart.